Waters That Carries Us

October 18:: on day 100 i drop to my knees to share my tears with the crystal red rock sands beneath me..

i have no doubt these waters will carry me for a long time.. that’s just what water seems to do is carry memory & weave it together into story through synchronistic order over time… the most sacred fluid tapestry she is..

on this walk particularly my heart was filled with so much grief.. a tired heart.. this was my last day of a 100 day commitment i made to come to the same spot on the land everyday..

with every step i took closer to the mountain this day, my heart softened deeper & tears fell down my eyes..

recently i learned from Veda Austin (extraordinary water researcher) that we are absolutely supposed to drink our own tears.. Tears are divinely designed & vibrationally aligned (down to molecular makeup) to literally soothe our tender emerald hearts as they fall..

a story written in the stars that was much more wondrous than i could’ve expected… as with any cycle ending, a new one simultaneously begins.. & the multidimensionally of it when ya add the water leaves me speechless & tender..

i had my offerings to give the land, but i couldn’t even get them out my heart was so raw.. i sat on my knees and placed my forehead on the crystal red rock sand.. tears fell from my eyes onto the land.. & for a moment i realized.. wow maybe one of the greatest gifts i could give this land is my tears.. crystalline emerald waters from my heart that were brought to life from feeling the full scope of my human experience.

the gift of a human heart so raw, it brought me to my knees..

it took me 1.5 years to complete this commitment with myself that originally i “expected” it to take 100 days… ohhh

how human i learned myself to be.. the expectations, failure, the guilt, strengthing of my own will, required patience & deep self compassion learned.. the patience that Spirit does have for us when we are trying our best.. in the last 6 months, everything became about fulfilling this commitment.. i really got to see into certain distractions & misalignments in my life, saying no to many things even seemingly small..

to live & stay somewhere long enough to really get to know the land is one of the greatest gifts i’ve received.. thank you to the plants & the land for continuing to humble me to the amount of love, devotion, compassion, patience, care, reverence, sinercity, respect, it takes to live in deep relationship with the sacred sentient beings that you are.

I love you Mother Earth with all my heart

I pray for you Mother Earth with all my heart

I pray for each person reading this to remember your true Essence, your true structure of crystalline Light + Water.

offerings to Earth really are so simple, as long as it’s from the heart, it can create the deepest bond & this will only grow over time, yet of course the human in us the is required to show up..

i do truly feel at this time on Earth, the highest & most joyful way forward is to reconnect so deeply to whatever lands were on & really honor them, get to know them… bring gifts of love, songs, tears, laughter, plant offerings… the reciprocal exchange to Her for giving us Life.

next time you your heart cracks open & emerald waters begin to fall, don’t wipe them away but rather intentionally receive the waters from your own heart, pause for a moment, & feel how they feel to you.. id really love to know!

to me it feels like the most loving nurturing comforting hug from the cosmic mother whose know me since my origin..

if you are in a process of grief & need support please reach out to someone close to you!!

you are so precious to life..

you are crystalline waters within & without, may you always remember🌿

ps. it’s ok to slow down, to take your time..

as far as i’ve seen, patients sometimes reveals the most beautiful gems in this  earthly plane..

in joy & emerald love

Jess